Jan 13, 2011

Prose Mashup : You Found Me v/s Remembering Sunday


He woke up from dreaming and put on his shoes
Started making his way past 2 in the morning
He hasn't been sober for days.....


The sudden realization of urgency makes us more impatient with every passing tick on the clock. Search for it inside, outside, around and beyond... Only to ask ourselves.. What exactly am I looking for here? Can't think straight, loss of focus, never knew that a void this huge existed within.

Where were you
When everything was falling apart?
All my days
Were spent by the telephone
That never rang
And all I needed was a call
That never came
To the corner of First and Amistad

You get comfortable with your discomfort. It doesn't even hurt anymore. Loneliness feels like a sweet, sweet pain. You scream it out loud, but no one can hear it, coz' you've built a soundproof wall all around yourself. I recently read somewhere- sometimes, the walls that we build around us aren't necessarily there to keep people out, but to see who cares enough and is worthy enough to break in. But all that you get to hear is your own echo, and you think,' I'm okay that way'. You let someone into your life and they just break your heart into pieces then walk all over it. Maybe the only person that you can trust is yourself after all.


Even though she doesn't believe in love,
He's determined to call her bluff
Who could deny these butterflies?
They're filling his gut
Waking the neighbors, unfamiliar faces
He pleads though he tries
But he's only denied
Now he's dying to get inside

*humming to self*"Lost and insecure.... You found me... Lying on the floor.. Surrounded... Why'd you have to wait, where were you?... Just a little late.... You found me.." WHY NOW? you were not here when you had to be, then why bother now? You could have just lied to me, you know!

Why'd you have to wait?
To find me, to find me...

Turn off that radio, take a nice hot shower, look at yourself in the mirror, It looks unbearable. But hey the good side is that you have now perfectly learnt to mask your emotions behind that fake smile. No, but the eyes don't lie. A silent tear rolls down your cheek...

I'm not coming back ,
I've done something so terrible
I'm terrified to speak ,
But you'd expect that from me
I'm mixed up, I'll be blunt, now the rain is just
Washing you out of my hair and out of my mind
Keeping an eye on the world,
From so many thousands of feet off the ground, I'm over you now
I'm at home in the clouds, and towering over your head

.... you wipe that tear, and then you smile at yourself. Perfect. No one will notice.


Well I guess I'll go home now...
I guess I'll go home now...
I guess I'll go home now...
I guess I'll go home.

11 comments:

Ankit said...

Wow!!! this is awesome....I liked the 2nd para the most..."you get comfortable with ur discomfort"....that wala. :) :) :)

Satans Darling™ said...

:) Thank you Ankit!

sulo said...

1 part of me: man! awesome... how do u write like this?!!! ;) uber cool :)

2nd part of me: man! heavily loaded.. ash - u okay?!!!

PULKIT said...

that's a creative master blend :)
typical Ash :)
emotions. creativity. emotions...and the loops :)
bi directional :) full justice to each ;)


one suggestion though :) would love to see, use to colors to separate the mesh within :) just as kajal use to do, it would look beautiful

tc
god bless u
:)
hamesha...

Satans Darling™ said...

Sulo

Thank you love <3 I am doing just fine! I guess I am getting my old self back to the blog world gradually! :P

Satans Darling™ said...

Pulkit,

So glad you liked the post. But you know what, in this piece there is only one color. Grey. One uniform color to mask all the shades within, right?! :)

Scribbling Girl said...

This was just so wonderful ....seriously...u have some magic in writings....

And i can so so read through it and feel it at times.....The line abt comfort in discomfort was amazing.....and its so true....we just get used to it.....as they say once bitten twice shy kinds.....but some bites are so harsh that they make us go into a shell....

A second reading of this makes me ask ....Hope u ok?

Take care and keep penning it out :)

Satans Darling™ said...

Hey SG!

Well I always find it easier to relate to songs than actually penning down my own thoughts in the form of poetry for the reason that more people can relate to it through a song well known. This just seemed apt. I am doing super fine :) Thanks for asking babe!

Much Love
xo

Misty Rhythm said...

that was brilliant! honestly. and i do hope you're doing fine coz those are pretty hefty emotions there..."you get comfortable with your discomfort"...how true.
take care
XOXO

Satans Darling™ said...

Thanks and welcome to the blog :) I am doing fine, I guess!!

P.S. Pretty pic!

Opaque said...

All the parts complement each other very well. Good one! Keep writing!!!

I have been away for quite some time. Been busy! You will know when you visit my spot. ;)